If you haven’t read the first part of Rachelle’s story, stop here and go to Against All Hope – Believe. Meet a True Friend.
We left off yesterday saying that God told Rachelle, “I will bless you double.” This promise came within days of losing Grace.
Rachelle didn’t know exactly what that meant, but she believed. It was her light in the blackness. It gave her hope.
It gave her so much hope she felt confused. Should she be feeling hope when she was walking through so much blackness?
Then God answered in a profound way, giving her a song by Steven Curtis Chapman called “With Hope.” I want you to pause and listen to the words.
We can cry with hope. We can say goodbye with hope. Why?
Goodbye is not the end.
Yes we can. And this allowed Rachelle to move forward – in hope.
There was a bible study she had an opportunity to attend called “Walking By Faith,” by Jennifer Rothschild, but Rachelle didn’t know if she really wanted make the commitment. While she was trying to talk herself out of going, a song came on. Guess what it was? “Walk by Faith” by Jeremy Camp.
Think God was directing her? You bet He was.
Then came another one of God’s promises: She would be pregnant in April – less than four months after losing Grace. Rachelle believed. And sure enough, in May Rachelle discovered she was pregnant for the second time.
This was a child of God’s promise. Although Rachelle struggled on and off with fear, for the most part, she was hopeful. Why? God’s promise.
Rachelle went in for her six and a half week check up. . . Do you want to guess what happened?
The doctor told her the baby had no heartbeat. That she would miscarry by the weekend.
I remember this day vividly because Rachelle called me. I remember dropping to the floor saying, “No, this is not right. God has promised this baby and we aren’t giving up.”
I believed. So did Rachelle. The doctor gave Rachelle the option to take a pill, have a D&C, or wait it out. The doctor said the pill would miscarry the child more quickly. Rachelle refused.
She said, “I didn’t want to stand in the way of anything God wanted to do.”
She believed. “Against all hope, Abraham in hope believed.” Rom 4:18
The doctor said Rachelle would miscarry on her own, but if Rachelle hadn’t miscarried before she was scheduled to fly to Texas, then Rachelle would have to have a D&C. The doctor didn’t want Rachelle to miscarry on the plane.
Rachelle understood, but she would wait for as long as possible – with hope.
Weeks passed and Rachelle didn’t miscarry.
Then came the day when Rachelle had to return to the doctor. The doctor was going to do a final ultrasound before the D&C. It was a Friday. The D&C was scheduled for Monday. The doctor hooked Rachelle up. The machine was on “silent.”
Suddenly, the doctor exclaimed, “My God!”
She flipped on the sound of the machine.
There was a heartbeat.
When questioned by Scott, the doctor couldn’t medically explain it. Rachelle could.
To think, the doctor was just days away from unknowingly taking a life.
God is faithful. Rachelle lost Grace at 22 weeks. Rachelle gained Anna one year later. Let me give you some amazing statistics.
Grace died on December 14th (Rachelle can look back and remember a violent movement in her body. This has happened to others who have lost a child in utero. Rachelle is sure this is when Grace died). Anna was born 5 weeks early, on December 14th, one year later.
Grace was pronounced dead on December 18th. Anna was brought home from the hospital on December 18th on year later.
Think God doesn’t care about the details? Think again.
Remember God said he would bless Rachelle double? They now have two beautiful girls named Anna and Elizabeth.
Rachelle’s darkness has been turned into light. And you know something else? Grace did have a purpose. We may not know every purpose in this life, but we know one. . .
Rachelle is now on the board of directors for a soon-to-be non-profit organization called “Cradled.” She actually helped launch it. It is going to help hundreds, if not thousands, of expectant mothers who find themselves at the doctor in the blackness.
Go to Cradled to check out what Rachelle is doing. But when you do, these are the first words you will find. . .
Maybe you’ve begun to miscarry, or maybe a Doppler or ultrasound has confirmed no heartbeat. Maybe you were told your baby will not survive, or you experienced tragedy at birth. We are so sorry. We hurt for you, and we want you to know there is love, hope and healing for you.
Someone is here to walk with you so you don’t have to navigate this journey alone.
Whether you are in a moment of crisis or years down the road, Cradled offers individual support as well as weekly peer support groups.
We are here for you.
Rachelle – through Daddy – will bring light in the blackness to many people.
What will she say?
You can cry with hope. You can say goodbye with hope. Because goodbye is not the end.
Daddy can make it right. If not in this life, in the next.
I can’t wait to meet Grace. Can you?
Dare to believe. Dare to hope.
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