I have decided I need to buy a hot tub and then everything will be okay. That is where I am right now. I just ran 10 miles and my legs need a soak. Hot tubs are expensive, but whatever. It will make me smile, and my legs will be much happier. So, I need a hot tub. That is going to be my focus for the next few weeks.
Although I am being humorous, I am serious at the same time. Ever look at your life and feel like NOTHING is going the way it should be going – like NOTHING. I mean, God has told me a few things to look forward to but there are HUGE obstacles along the way. No end in sight. Like, no end. Nada. Zero. Zilch. It is like the Puppet Master is playing some kind of sick joke and pulling strings in such a way that purposely tangle me up. The stings are all around me and I can’t seem break free. I am biting them, pulling them, pushing them and all I seem to do is find myself wadded up like a ball of yarn a three-year-old found in a trash bin.
I mean Mary Poppins has not arrived in my life; and Dick Van Dyke is not singing Chim chim-in-ey, chim chim-in-ey, Chim chim cher-ee. The angels are there but I do not hear them singing. In fact they are whispering back and forth and pointing at me like I am the gold fish in Dr. Seuss that is being tossed around by the Cat in the Hat.
So I have decided I need a hot tub. I mean, after all, I just ran 10 miles – I deserve it – but alas there is no hot tub! Mary Poppins would be appalled. Dick Van Dyke would Chim chim-in-ey my bootie to the nearest hot tub dealer and insist that I could jump into the imaginary world of make believe if only I could dip my toes in the warm mass of swirling water. The birds would be singing – some may even land on my finger. The carousel horses would come to life and gallivant me along the path to a fabulous world where all of my dreams would be realized.
In all honesty, I am laughing right now. I need a good laugh when things seem to be going nowhere at all. With a little less honesty, what the hell is wrong with me? A hot tub will not make any of this other stuff go away, but I feel like I need to focus on an end goal right now. A hot tub is something I can control, some piece of life I can actually decide upon. This other stuff? Nope. Can’t do anything about it. For about six months now I have been completely stressed out not really TRYING to make anything happen but EXPECTING it to happen. Well, God is a tricky fellow. His timeline is normally not ours. So for the past few weeks I have trained my heart to “let go” and I’ve sat back and thrown up my hands. My prayers have changed from, “Let something happen today,” to my famous I don’t know what is happening prayer of “Help me.” That is it – just help me. That is what I need right now: strength from Him to trust what He is telling me even if NOTHING is going the way it should for the end result to happen.
So, I am going to focus on a hot tub. That is very adult of me is it not? Mary Poppins would be proud. So would Dick Van Dyke. In fact, Mr. Van Dyke would really be proud because he knows what it means to have a good laugh. I mean, that man can actually float to the ceiling when he laughs. It is glorious really. The other day I needed a good laugh so I went to get some helium balloons. If you suck the helium up and sing, “Follow the Yellow Brick Road,” you almost float to the ceiling just like Mr. Van Dyke. If your world seems like nothing is going the way it should be going, then you might just want to try this experiment. I mean, if nothing is happening when it should be happening, don’t you feel like you are on a yellow brick road? I mean surely you can’t be on a real road if NOTHING is reality and EVERYTHING is far away and you really do need a brain, and possibly courage to continue to follow the yellow brick road until God decides to pave another way.
The other day a friend texted me an encouraging word. She is also going through this NOTHING is happening the way I was TOLD it would happen phase. Here is the text I sent back to her. . .
“Thinking about our situations and I keep asking myself what did God tell me and I think I am focusing on what everybody else is saying and on what is happening and I keep bearing away from what God is saying so go back to what God told you and believe, no matter what.”
Smart words that I need to take to heart.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight.” Proverbs 3:5-6
He will make your paths straight even if you are on a yellow brick road right now. In fact, sometimes He deviates us to the yellow brick road in order to grow us a bit. So enjoy the view for a while. Everything will work out the way it is supposed to. God is good like that.
But until that day comes, go get some helium balloons. In all honesty, you can’t look at your life that seriously if you sound like a chipmunk on steroids.
Without laughter, life would not be doable at all. Mr. Van Dyke knows this very well.
I will let you know if laughter sounds even better in a hot tub.
Until the world makes sense – laugh.